Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Bob is Dead

At 9 weeks, 5 days today, I went in for my just for fun last ultrasound with Dr. W before officially graduating to a regular ob/gyn.  And there was no heartbeat.  The baby stopped growing just 2 days after my last ultrasound.

Hubby was not able to go to this appointment with me, so now I just get to sit here and wait until he gets home to tell him the really shitty news.

It really sucks and I have so much more I want to say about this.  But not right now.  Right now I am going to go make cupcakes.  And maybe eat them all.

34 comments:

  1. Amber I am so sorry for your loss and so sorry you had to get the news without your husband. Sometimes life is so unfair and cruel.

    ReplyDelete
  2. I am so, so sorry to hear this news. My heart is breaking for you and your hubby. It's really not fair and I'm so sorry you had to be there by yourself. Take care of yourself during this hard time.

    ReplyDelete
  3. Oh Amber. My heart is breaking for you. I'm so, so sorry this happened. It just isn't fair to have Bob taken away. Abiding with you...

    Much love. ((Hugs))

    ReplyDelete
  4. Oh sweetheart, I have no words. Love and hugs and all my thoughts with you.

    ReplyDelete
  5. That really effing sucks. I'm so sorry for your loss. {{{{HUGS}}}}

    ReplyDelete
  6. I'm so sorry. It is a horrible thing to get this news alone.

    ReplyDelete
  7. Oh my goodness...I am so so sorry to read this. Big hugs to you and your husband. Wow, life can really suck.

    ReplyDelete
  8. I am so very sorry. I wish this hadn't happened.

    ReplyDelete
  9. Amber, I am so sorry. No other words for you.

    ReplyDelete
  10. I am in tears right now for you. This is so heartbreaking and unfair. Know you are in my thoughts!

    ReplyDelete
  11. I'm coming over from compromised fertility. I am so very sorry to hear of your news. Please take good care of yourself. You are in my thoughts.

    ReplyDelete
  12. I just stopped by from ICLW and read your news. I am so, so sorry to hear this. Sending you lots of hugs from an internet stranger who's heart is breaking for you. Big hugs *hug*

    ReplyDelete
  13. I am so very sorry. none of this is fair

    ReplyDelete
  14. ICLW #55. I am so, so sorry to hear this. My heart is breaking for you.

    ReplyDelete
  15. wow I am so sorry....We are all here for you

    ReplyDelete
  16. I am so, so sorry. There are no words...

    ReplyDelete
  17. Amber I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs! We are here for you when you are ready!

    ReplyDelete
  18. hi from ICLW. Praying for comfort, sorry to hear about your loss!

    ReplyDelete
  19. Oh no Amber, I'm so sorry to hear this awful news. I can't imagine how hard this must be. This is so terribly unfair.

    ReplyDelete
  20. I don;t understand why the Universe is so cruel, sending you comfort and love during this difficult time.

    ReplyDelete
  21. I don't know what to say other than I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that there are lots of thoughts and prayers being sent your way.

    ReplyDelete
  22. this is just horribly sad. you are in my thoughts

    ReplyDelete
  23. Oh I'm so so so sorry. :( Thinking about you tons and tons.

    ReplyDelete
  24. I am so very sorry. This is horrible and totally unfair. I am sending you lots of thoughts and prayers.

    ReplyDelete
  25. Thank you to everyone that has stopped by. I absolutely cannot tell you how much it has meant to me to read your kind words of love and support. Thank you.

    ReplyDelete
  26. Amber, I am so incredibly sorry to read your news. It isn't fair. My heart goes out to you and your husband. Keeping your family in my thoughts...

    ReplyDelete
  27. Here from LFCA. I've been there - hearing the news without the hubby at a 'graduation' u/s. It sucks. I am so sorry that you're having to go through this. Best wishes to you and your hubby on this journey.

    ReplyDelete
  28. Amber, I am so sorry! I saw your comment on Andy's blog. I don't know how I missed this. My heart hurts for both of you. All I can say is that I'm sorry for your pain.

    ReplyDelete
  29. I just found your blog and was catching up. I am SO SORRY!! I know words don't help, nothing helps, but I was so sad for you to read this.
    {{{{{{{{{{{{{AMBER}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

    ReplyDelete
  30. My heart breaks all over for you and your family that was going through this with you. Know how devestating this was for the grandparents but so glad that you had them to share hugs and cry with. And what a support your fellow bloggers must have been for you while waiting for hubby to get home to comfort each other. This happened 2 days after your Mom's birthday. Had you told her? Because of respecting your privacy, we haven't gone down this road in our phone conversations as I don't ask questions because I don't know what she knows or doesn't know. And even knowing at this point, we won't go down that road for the same reason. Just curious. I was waiting to read the blog about how that went sharing the news and it never came.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I was going to announce our pregnancy on Mom's birthday, but it didn't work out for me to see her that day. We found out on Wednesday about the loss, I told her on Thursday. And I didn't talk to my in-laws for a full week. I couldn't handle her grief in addition to my own. I didn't talk to Sis for a day or two either, for the same reason, but I knew I had to suck it up and call her because I knew she would be hurting too. Now I know why she was even more upset since she was pregnant at the time!

      Delete