At 9 weeks, 5 days today, I went in for my just for fun last ultrasound with Dr. W before officially graduating to a regular ob/gyn. And there was no heartbeat. The baby stopped growing just 2 days after my last ultrasound.
Hubby was not able to go to this appointment with me, so now I just get to sit here and wait until he gets home to tell him the really shitty news.
It really sucks and I have so much more I want to say about this. But not right now. Right now I am going to go make cupcakes. And maybe eat them all.
Amber I am so sorry for your loss and so sorry you had to get the news without your husband. Sometimes life is so unfair and cruel.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry to hear this news. My heart is breaking for you and your hubby. It's really not fair and I'm so sorry you had to be there by yourself. Take care of yourself during this hard time.
ReplyDeleteOh Amber. My heart is breaking for you. I'm so, so sorry this happened. It just isn't fair to have Bob taken away. Abiding with you...
ReplyDeleteMuch love. ((Hugs))
Oh sweetheart, I have no words. Love and hugs and all my thoughts with you.
ReplyDeleteThat really effing sucks. I'm so sorry for your loss. {{{{HUGS}}}}
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. It is a horrible thing to get this news alone.
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness...I am so so sorry to read this. Big hugs to you and your husband. Wow, life can really suck.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry. I wish this hadn't happened.
ReplyDeleteAmber, I am so sorry. No other words for you.
ReplyDeleteI am in tears right now for you. This is so heartbreaking and unfair. Know you are in my thoughts!
ReplyDeleteI'm coming over from compromised fertility. I am so very sorry to hear of your news. Please take good care of yourself. You are in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI just stopped by from ICLW and read your news. I am so, so sorry to hear this. Sending you lots of hugs from an internet stranger who's heart is breaking for you. Big hugs *hug*
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry. none of this is fair
ReplyDeleteICLW #55. I am so, so sorry to hear this. My heart is breaking for you.
ReplyDeleteOh no, I am so sorry...
ReplyDeletewow I am so sorry....We are all here for you
ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry. There are no words...
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry....
ReplyDeleteAmber I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs! We are here for you when you are ready!
ReplyDeletehi from ICLW. Praying for comfort, sorry to hear about your loss!
ReplyDeleteOh no Amber, I'm so sorry to hear this awful news. I can't imagine how hard this must be. This is so terribly unfair.
ReplyDeleteI don;t understand why the Universe is so cruel, sending you comfort and love during this difficult time.
ReplyDeleteI don't know what to say other than I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that there are lots of thoughts and prayers being sent your way.
ReplyDeletethis is just horribly sad. you are in my thoughts
ReplyDeleteOh I'm so so so sorry. :( Thinking about you tons and tons.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry. This is horrible and totally unfair. I am sending you lots of thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteThank you to everyone that has stopped by. I absolutely cannot tell you how much it has meant to me to read your kind words of love and support. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteAmber, I am so incredibly sorry to read your news. It isn't fair. My heart goes out to you and your husband. Keeping your family in my thoughts...
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ReplyDeleteHere from LFCA. I've been there - hearing the news without the hubby at a 'graduation' u/s. It sucks. I am so sorry that you're having to go through this. Best wishes to you and your hubby on this journey.
ReplyDeleteAmber, I am so sorry! I saw your comment on Andy's blog. I don't know how I missed this. My heart hurts for both of you. All I can say is that I'm sorry for your pain.
ReplyDeleteI just found your blog and was catching up. I am SO SORRY!! I know words don't help, nothing helps, but I was so sad for you to read this.
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My heart breaks all over for you and your family that was going through this with you. Know how devestating this was for the grandparents but so glad that you had them to share hugs and cry with. And what a support your fellow bloggers must have been for you while waiting for hubby to get home to comfort each other. This happened 2 days after your Mom's birthday. Had you told her? Because of respecting your privacy, we haven't gone down this road in our phone conversations as I don't ask questions because I don't know what she knows or doesn't know. And even knowing at this point, we won't go down that road for the same reason. Just curious. I was waiting to read the blog about how that went sharing the news and it never came.
ReplyDeleteI was going to announce our pregnancy on Mom's birthday, but it didn't work out for me to see her that day. We found out on Wednesday about the loss, I told her on Thursday. And I didn't talk to my in-laws for a full week. I couldn't handle her grief in addition to my own. I didn't talk to Sis for a day or two either, for the same reason, but I knew I had to suck it up and call her because I knew she would be hurting too. Now I know why she was even more upset since she was pregnant at the time!
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