Monday, October 8, 2018

Microblog Monday: 3 Hours

The kids are in preschool for 3 hours, 3 times a week. Those 3 hours sure do fly by quickly! Here's a list of things that I'd like to (need to) accomplish while they are in school:

  • Every day household chores like laundry, dishes, vacuuming, cleaning the bathrooms, sweeping and mopping.
  • Wiping down the hall closets (we have 3) so I can finally unpack and put stuff away.
  • Unpack boxes of above mentioned stuff.
  • Finish wiping down cupboards in the kitchen so I can unpack the last of the kitchen boxes.
  • Finish painting the dining room walls and trim so we can move the China hutch to it's permanent home.
  • Paint the kitchen, hallway, and our master bathroom.
  • Paint all the trim/molding in the kitchen and hallway.
  • Pay bills.
  • Decorate for Fall/Halloween.
  • Go for a walk/run. Now that it is dark so early at night, I can't go after putting them to bed. This is the only time I have during the day to get in my walk or run.
  • Grocery shopping.

There's still so much to do to get settled into our new house, and not enough time in the day to do it.

Here's what I got done today during my "free" 3 hours:

  • I got a short walk in.

  • Did 2.5 loads of laundry, including getting it all folded and put away.
  • Unloaded the dishwasher.
  • Posted a picture of my kiddos to Instagram and Facebook that I took before dropping them off at school today.
Personality for days!

Boom. 3 hours passed and it was already time to pick up the kids. I still have a giant list of things to do. It will get done someday, right?

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Friday, October 5, 2018

Right Now: October Edition

Reading: I have a book on hold at the library, waiting for me to pick it up this afternoon! I am very excited to read Unbroken: a World War II story of Survival, resilience, and redemption by Laura Hillenbrand. There is a movie out about the man this story is about, Louis Zamperini, and a second movie coming out soon that I really want to see, but I need to read the book first!

Watching: Too many things! This is Us - love that they are bringing infertility into the show. A Million Little Things - the verdict is still out as to if I will like this show or not. I love that they are bringing awareness to mental health, but not a fan of the affair between friends. Yes, affairs happen and it is a fact of life to some degree, but icky that it's between best friends. New Amsterdam - I accidentally happened upon this show one night and I AM HOOKED! I love this show and can't wait for the next episode.

Listening: Currently listening to my children in their bedrooms. It's supposed to be "quiet" time, but they are not all that quiet. I really was hoping they would take a short nap, because they have been very cranky, emotional bears lately.

Drinking: Water and Minute Maid light lemonade.

Eating: The kids and I went to a farm with MIL the other day and picked red and green peppers, banana peppers, tomatoes, cabbage, onions, zucchini, and pumpkins. The kids are super excited about their "Halloween" pumpkins, and I am super excited about the produce. I made a stir fry the first night, and last night we had tacos and used the cabbage in place of lettuce. We are having the left over taco stuff tonight.

He carried his own pumpkin all the way from the field to the car.

Wearing: Jeans, a t-shirt, and a sweatshirt I stole from Tony.

Loving: Watching my kids in their activities! Saturdays are very busy for us right now. We start the morning bright and early with the kids playing soccer at 8:00am. Then Rylee has ballet at 9:30, and Ayden has karate at 10:30. I LOVE that the local martial arts studio here in town has karate at such a reasonable price! We wanted to sign Ayden up for karate last year when Rylee did ballet, but the cost was astronomical. We LOVE the teacher and Ayden is enjoying the class. I'd like to have Rylee taking karate too, but it is sooooo good for Ayden to have something just for himself. This also gives Tony and I the opportunity to have one on one time with the kids on Saturdays. One of us takes Rylee to ballet and the other takes Ayden to karate. Then we can do one on one dates with them doing something fun afterward.

Anticipating: The holidays. The kids get SO excited and that makes it pretty much the best thing ever. I pulled out a few Halloween window clings and a couple decorations to put outside yesterday and it entertained the kids for the rest of the day. They are planning what buckets they will use for trick-or-treating and can't wait to wear their costumes. Then comes Thanksgiving, their birthday, and Christmas!

Hoping: To finish unpacking and getting settled in. We also have a lot more painting to get done. I'm hoping to finish painting the dining room and kitchen in the next few weeks, so we can finally get the furniture moved to where it's going to go. It will be so nice to have it DONE. Also hoping that the exterminators will be able to solve our mouse and spider issues. I found a gigantic spider in the garage yesterday! It was huge and only about 6 inches from the garage door opener. Rylee was about to open the garage door, but I saw the spider and screamed (eye roll at my reaction; I just can't help myself), making her jump back. Only 10 more days until the exterminator comes.

Following: Trying to keep up on reading posts from my fellow blogger friends. It's also hard to avoid all the goings on in politics these days. I'm not much of a political person, but I do try to at least keep up a little bit with what's going on so I can make informed decisions when it comes time to vote in November.

Wondering: What happened to the kids' preschool teacher. She was there on Monday, but not on Wednesday. After school I asked the kids about Mrs. W not being there, and Rylee's response was that Mrs. W was never going to be their teacher ever, ever again. Of course that's all the details I got from them, and I wasn't sure what to make of it. Then that afternoon I got an email from the school, introducing Mrs. C (previously the assistant preschool teacher) as the new preschool teacher and Miss S as the new assistant teacher. No details as to why the change and why Mrs. W was no longer their teacher. So, preschool drama continues. However, I was never a fan of Mrs. W (which you can read about here), so I'm not sad to see her go.

Trying: To kick my junk food eating habit. I was doing a ridiculous amount of stress eating, mostly ice cream. I have avoided buying ice cream my last two trips to the grocery store. I am trying to snack on better, healthier foods. I really, really hate my body right now so changes are necessary. I was doing pretty good with my running, but now that it gets dark so early, I'm not able to do that after the kids go to bed. I need to find another way to fit exercise into my schedule. In the meantime, I can take control by making better food choices.

Worrying: I worry about Ayden. He was the HAPPIEST baby and toddler. He is definitely not the happiest now. He is a very sensitive little guy, and gets upset when other kids don't want to play with him, when he gets in trouble, and if he can't do something perfectly. He is very dramatic about things, saying things like "I will never have a pet," "I will never get to....," and "I can't do (fill in the blank)." He gets upset to the point of a meltdown if he doesn't "win" at whatever he is doing. Sometimes I think he doesn't try at things because he is afraid of failure. Such as writing his name. He says he can't write his name and won't even try. He has also said "nobody likes me," which completely breaks my heart. I feel like this is my fault. I am the one that spends the most time with him, and somehow I have ruined his confidence.

Planning: Their birthday. We are either doing it at a bouncy house this year, or at the local fire station.  We have a gift certificate for a "party" at the fire station that Tony's uncle bought us last year at an auction. We were supposed to use it over the summer, but our summer was crazy. I need to find out if they will still let us use it, and if they don't mind letting us push it out till December for their birthday.

Contemplating: Getting a resume put together. I need to get this done by spring, so I can start applying for jobs for next year. I know that gives me plenty of time, but the idea of putting a resume together gives me anxiety, so I am contemplating who I can get to help me with it!

Wednesday, October 3, 2018

I Have an Embarrassing Problem

Let's talk about something embarrassing. I stink. As in, I have been suffering from some serious body odor issues. This has been going on for about 6-8 months now roughly, that I just can't seem to battle the body odor. In the past, there might have been a day every once in awhile where I was especially stinky after a workout or something, and it would go away with a shower. No problem. That's normal.

What I have going on right now is not normal. My armpits ALWAYS smell. Even after scrubbing (and scrubbing and scrubbing) in the shower, I get out and can still smell myself. I started using Native deodorant almost 4 months ago, and it has helped considerably, but there is still always an underlying smell. And Lord help us all if I happen to forget to put it on immediately after getting out of the shower. Within an hour, I STINK bad. It's pretty ridiculous.

Have you ever been around someone that smells especially rank? I'm not talking about at the gym where it is to be expected to some degree. Although, I do remember when I worked as a personal trainer at an athletic club, there were a few special circumstances where particular gym members had overwhelming body odor, so bad that you couldn't stand to be in the same room as them. Our manager had to have embarrassing conversations with them because it was turning away other members.


Well, crap!!!! This was NOT supposed to post earlier! I just came back to finish, only to discover I managed to publish it instead of save it. Facepalm. So here's part 2.

There's been a few times I've been around someone that was having a particularly smelly day. Not enough to make you gag, like the few occasional people at the gym, but enough to make you wonder if they forgot their deodorant that day. I always wondered if they knew they had B.O. or if they were oblivious. Now I'm of the mind that they probably knew. 

This is a sensitive subject for me because my grandma is one of those very smelly people. It makes me feel awful even writing that, but it's a real problem. My grandma lives in an assisted living retirement home. Everyone in my family (accept for my mom, because she is a saint in this regard) has a hard time going to visit her because her room smells so powerfully bad. The last time I visited her, it was during dinner and she was in the cafeteria. Usually that's the best place to visit because we aren't stuck in her tiny, smelly room. But on that day, she smelled so bad it was enough to make your eyes water and knock you over. It was all I could do not to gag in her face when I gave her a hug! I have no idea how her table companions could stand it. My sister and my aunt were with me that day. It was very upsetting how bad she smelled. My aunt followed that visit up with a call to the facility to find out why she wasn't being taken care of properly. Come to find out, she had been bathed THAT DAY! And she still stank so bad. I have a real fear of this happening to me. 

I've always thought that body odor came from a lack of good personal hygiene. I'm now coming to the realization that sometimes it truly doesn't matter how well you shower, how much you scrub, and how much deodorant you wear. Some people truly just have a major B.O. issue. Turns out I'm one of them.

I'm pretty sure this is a hormonal thing, and has to do with being perimenopausal (self diagnosed). I am hoping to get a doctor's appointment scheduled by the end of the week. I just need to decide where I'm going and find out who will see me. The fact that I don't ever go to the doctor very often, combined with all the moving we've done in the last 4 years, means that I don't really have a regular doctor. I need to buckle down and make some phone calls.

Monday, September 24, 2018

Microblog Monday: Heebie Jeebies

Not long after we moved into our new house, I was standing at the kitchen counter making lunch for the kids and felt a tickle on my foot. I brushed at it with my other foot, looked down, and realized a spider had just ran across my foot! Shudder. That spider is now dead. I know there are a lot of don't-kill-the-spiders kind of people out there that would have caught it and released it outside. I am not one of those people.

On Friday, I was sitting on the couch while the kids were in their rooms for quiet time, and out of the corner of my eye I saw something run behind our tv stand. OMG, was that a MOUSE!? Yes. Yes, it was a f*@#ing mouse. A mouse in my house. We had planned on having a pest control company come out eventually, as the inspection report when we bought the house showed old rat droppings under the house. I hadn't yet called to schedule the appointment though. On Friday, as I was staring down this mouse, I made the call. My mil happened to come by while I was on the phone with them. She immediately went to the store and got a few traps. The kids enjoyed being mouse hunters that afternoon. Ayden seriously thought he could catch it, as it ran from the tv stand to the pantry to the tv stand again, to behind the couches and into the hall closet. I chased this little sucker around, placing a glue trap close to wherever its current hiding place was. Finally, he ended up running onto the glue trap and getting caught. Ohhhh, the squealing! Rylee repeatedly asked me if I was sorry for catching the mouse. Bless her animal loving heart. She kept going in to talk to it. She wanted to feed it. Both her and Ayden were convinced it was a baby mouse and it's mommy was going to be looking for it. They also wanted to keep the damn mouse as a pet.

We went to Tony's parents for dinner that night to celebrate mil's birthday. Tony left early to dispose of the mouse before the kids and I got home. The first thing Rylee did when we got home was go to check on the mouse. We told the kids that daddy let it go outside. We probably shouldn't have lied to them, but they would have been devastated to know the truth. Ayden was very sad because, he will "never get to have a pet!"

Today, I was driving around running errands after dropping the kids off at school. There was a spider hanging from my rearview mirror! When I screamed (yes, I screamed. Sue me.), it dropped down right next to my leg. It's a miracle I didn't wreck the car. I pulled into a driveway at my first opportunity and jumped out of the car, trying to find the spider. Of course I didn't find it. I finally got back in the car and went about my errands, continuously feeling like I had a damn spider crawling around my ankles and up my leg. About an hour later, while pulling into the parking lot to pick the kids up from school, the spider showed up again! It was crawling up my driver-side door. I tried to get it with a napkin (which I had gotten out and ready from my previous attempt to catch this spider), but it dropped down to the floorboard. I quickly parked and got out of the car. This time I DID manage to catch the spider.

So, we are spider and mouse killers. And now I have the heebie jeebies. I'm waiting for another mouse to show up, and every little tingle or itch feels like a spider is crawling over me.

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Wednesday, September 19, 2018

Mostly Wordless Wednesday

I have about a million blog posts that I want/need to write, but can't seem to find the words or motivation to actually sit down and write them. So, I'm going to just do a photo dump instead. Besides, who doesn't like seeing cute pictures?

Spiderman and Marshal watched Pinkalicious while I took my shower one morning 

Too cool for words

She actually took a rare nap

With our very first twin friends that we met when they all were just babies

With our nature hike friends from Veneta

We have grapes in our backyard!

Sometimes they get along

Ayden let Rylee borrow a pair of his dinosaur pj's for "3 days"

We went to the carousel

They were intrigued with the giant "Earth"

A picture with their Momma

They drew a "hopscotch" in our driveway 

Popsicles put everyone in a good mood

I let them make a giant mess in the living room with the agreement that they would clean it all up. They actually upheld their end of the bargain!

Friday, September 14, 2018

21 Years

We look SO YOUNG!

Yesterday we celebrated our 21st wedding anniversary. 21 years! I don't feel old enough to have been married for so long. When I told Tony that, he said "we ARE old." No, no we are not. Middle aged is not old! This was one of our anniversary dinner conversations.

The man absolutely drives me crazy most days and has a gazillion annoying habits (and I'm sure I do, too), but he also has a lot of redeeming qualities. In honor of our anniversary, I thought it would be a good time to reflect on the things I love and appreciate about my husband.

  • He tells me he loves me every single day, usually by asking "have I told you today how much I love you?"
  • He is funny (also one of his annoying qualities). He is very quick witted and can come up with a joke faster than anyone else I know.
  • He is amazing at math, which balances us out, because I am soooo not good at math. He can figure how much a tip should be at a restaurant down to the penny in about 10 seconds. Very convenient! He will definitely be the one to help the kids with their math homework.
  • He LOVES his kids and is a great daddy, without question.
  • He loves sports, same as me. And board/card games.
  • He is competitive, but also knows how to be a good sport (most of the time).
  • He is incredibly creative at making up games to play. This comes in handy on long road trips, and/or just to entertain the kids in general.
  • He works hard for our family. He commutes to work, even though he despises it, so we can live in a different area that is better for our family.
  • He is very level headed, calm, and reassuring when I need it the most, meaning when I get myself worked up/upset about things (like the start of preschool this year for example).
  • He has an amazing gift of being able to strike up a conversation and talk with anyone.
I know that there are other amazing qualities that I am not thinking of, but I'd say these are the top 10.

We didn't do anything fancy for our anniversary and don't currently have any plans, although we have talked about trying to arrange for a weekend away. The night before, we realized we could ask his parents to watch the kids and feed them dinner, a HUGE bonus to having moved back closer to family. So the kids had a fun evening with the grandparents, while we were able to enjoy an actual anniversary dinner out.

Through good times and bad, through all the arguments and laughs, through 9 moves in 21 years of marriage (6 in the last 3.5 years), through 14 years of trying to have children, surviving infertility and coming out on the other side, to now being a family of 4. Here's to another 21 years of adventures ahead of us in whatever life has in store.

Monday, September 10, 2018

Preschool Update

Today I dropped the kids off at preschool and didn't stay at all. After having a conversation with the teachers on Friday about my frustrations (which you can read about in my last post), I didn't feel it would be a good idea to stay and potentially add more pressure. I don't want them to feel judged, as nobody likes that!

When I picked up the kids, they were excited to see me and seemed to have enjoyed their morning. I was happy (relieved) to see that they had worked on (or at least talked about) the letter A today.

I checked in with the teacher to see if she had put anything together for me to help with. Her response was that it would be great if I could do the name tags so the kids would know where there seats are in class, but she had to find the supplies for that first. Okaaaayyyyyy, I have three thoughts on that:

  1. I'm glad to know that she has plans to help curb the chaos and be more organized.
  2. How hard is it to find the name tags and print out a class list for me? She had all weekend to do this!
  3. Deep breath. I have no idea what her personal story is. Maybe she didn't have any time available to devote towards being more prepared and organized. Maybe she had a death in the family and that's why she always seems so... awkward. Maybe she has no background in teaching and she was just the best option the school could find at the last minute? That is not a comforting thought.

I do take comfort in the fact that the kids are being shown love from the teacher's assistant. She is very warm and loving with the kids and really seems to connect with them. The kids really like her a lot. If only the head teacher could relate to preschoolers on the same level...

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