Tuesday, October 17, 2017

21 Days

In August, I wrote about how my period was 10 days late and how I played mind games with myself over that. Well, guess what? This last cycle I was 21 days late!! 21! This time around, however, I did not even entertain the idea that I could possibly be pregnant. Nope. I'm just coming to the realization that I'm getting old. I mean, tomorrow IS my birthday after all.

So apparently, this blog has gone through being about infertility, and then the early days of parenthood, and now is turning into a blog about menopause. Just kidding. Kind of. I'll try not to bore you with that. Although, I suppose in a way it's all relative, since my lack of egg production and infertility directly correlates with me being perimenopausal.

Friday, October 13, 2017

Day in the Life: Fall 2017

I missed doing the summer link up for a DITL post because we were in the middle of buying our house and moving. I'm so excited to get back on board and get it done this time around. I enjoy going back and reading my past DITL posts and comparing how much life has changed through the past couple years.

If you'd like to be involved in this DITL link up, please visit Liz on her blog at Ellie and Addie.

Welcome to our Day in the Life, from October 11th, 2017...

Tony: 44 years old
Me: 42 years old (till next week!)
Rylee: 3.5 years old
Ayden: 3.5 years old

2:00am - Ayden wakes up crying for the second time tonight because he peed the bed. The first time was at 10:15, right before Tony was about to go in and take him potty. I get him cleaned up and in new pajamas, then strip his bed and throw on a blanket on top of the mattress protector. Grab a fresh blanket to cover him up with.

2:09 - I crawl back into bed and wonder if I'm going to actually be able to go back to sleep with Tony snoring away right next to me. Thankfully I do fall asleep rather quickly.

6:10 - Tony's alarm goes off and he presses snooze. He proceeds to press snooze two more times.

6:56 - I nudge Tony and tell him he'd better get up.

7:00 - He rolls out of bed and I scroll Facebook for a few minutes.

7:05 - I get up and get myself dressed and ready for the day.

7:15 - I hear Rylee call out to Ayden. It's time to wake them up anyway. I go into each of their rooms and open the blinds to let light in. I'm surprised to see Rylee still in her bed, as I had thought she was hollering to Ayden from their connected bathroom. While they are getting themselves out of bed, I go to the laundry room to put Ayden's wet blankets into the washer. Then I go into my own bathroom to take care of business. Ayden comes in saying he has to go potty and proceeds to throw his first fit of the day when I tell him to go into his own bathroom. Why can't a mom just poop in peace??? I finish up and Ayden happily pees in our bathroom toilet. eye roll

Then I get him dressed for the day in his beloved "fuzzy pants" and new-to-him Spiderman shirt that I had found at the consignment sale a few weeks ago. While I'm getting him dressed, I tell Rylee to go in and go potty. On her way into the bathroom she tells me "I didn't pee in my panties," which is code for the fact that she DID pee in there panties. This is the third morning in a row she has woken up and chosen to pee in her pants instead of going into the bathroom. I put her (toy) horses up in the closet for time out and she said, "for 5 days." I guess she knows the drill by now. lol. This is only the third time we've ever put a toy in time out. Both times so far have worked to get her back on track peeing in the toilet, but then she ends up regressing again a month or two down the road... Eventually it will just stick, right? 

Tony comes upstairs at this exact moment to say goodbye to the kids and I tell him not to walk on Ayden's bedroom carpet with his shoes on (one of only two rooms in our house that has carpet). WHY does he not care about preserving the carpet? He gets mad and stomps off. Ayden gets upset because Daddy is now leaving without saying goodbye and runs out of his room to go get his kisses and hugs. Rylee runs bare butt out to get her hugs and kisses, too.

I know. Not our finest moments, but this is real life, right?

Tony leaves and I give Rylee a wipe down and finish getting them both dressed. Rylee requests "ponytail braids" and I oblige.

7:45 - We go downstairs for breakfast. I ask them if they want Kix or Corn Pops and they say they want both, so both it is! Rylee doesn't want milk in her cereal, but Ayden does. They sit down to eat and I get them some juice (1/4 prune juice, 3/4 water). Rylee gets a 1/4 dose Miralax in hers. Once they finish their cereal, I give them each a probiotic.

Rylee was mad she "wasn't ready" for the first picture, so she wanted me to take another. This is the smile she gave me. haha! She's such a stinker.

I've really been trying to work on making healthy habits. My focus this week is on drinking more water, with a goal of 100 oz. So far I've been doing pretty good.

The goal is to drink 3 of these every day.


8:00 - Everyone goes potty, then we put on our shoes and raincoats, and we are out the door.




8:15 - We're all loaded in the car and I pull out of the driveway.

8:19 - Pull into the preschool parking lot and get them inside. I help them put their backpacks and coats in their cubbies and remind them they need to go wash their hands (a school rule to help prevent passing sickness). I talk to the head teacher a few minutes.

8:27 - Back home. Eat a few slices of ham. Run upstairs to put Ayden's blankets in the dryer, only to discover that the clothes in the dryer from the night before are still wet. I turn the dryer on and go back downstairs to look at the pics I'd taken already today. I update my notes for this blog post.

9:00 - I get on Facebook for a bit.

9:12 - I swap the laundry out of the washer and dryer and put another load in. Then I fold and put away the clean clothes. After that, I sweep and mop both upstairs bathrooms. I feel a little motivated and even wipe down the baseboard moldings.

9:45 - Eat a Zone bar and scroll Facebook.

10:00 - I get dinner going in the crockpot. It's cream cheese chicken taquitos for dinner tonight. I have to search a few boxes in the garage for the hand mixer that still hadn't been unpacked from our move yet. Thankfully I had a general idea of where it was.

10:25 - Finished loading the dishwasher and got it started.

10:30 - Cleaned the downstairs half bathroom.

10:45 - Switched the laundry around and put in another load.

11:00 - Left to go pick up the kids from school.

11:16 - Back home with the kids.


He apparently colored on himself at school today :)

We are in the house for literally less than a minute and Rylee says, "I didn't pee in my pants" and crawled on the couch. OMG this girl! I hustle her into the bathroom and she had dribbled just a tiny bit, not even worthy of changing her undies. However, had I let her continue to sit on the couch, she most likely would have had a bigger "accident." shaking my head

We had a little talk about how potty needs to go in the toilet.

11:25 - A friend told me about a show on Netflix called Room on the Broom, which there's apparently also a book. The kids are really into Halloween this year, so I thought it could be a good one for them to watch. I turned it on for them while I made lunch. They were engrossed. Rylee especially loved the show.

11:50 - Turn the tv off, wash hands, and sit down for lunch: ham and cheese sandwiches with green beans and grapes on the side.

12:20 - Ayden finishes his lunch and brings his plate to the sink. I wash him up and he goes upstairs to play.

12:23 - Despite saying he was going upstairs to play, turns out he was just going to get some cars to bring downstairs. He asks me to play with him, so we play for a bit, until he tells me his toenails are long. They aren't too long, but he did have a snag on one, so I trim them up for him.

Flying his airplanes while I played with the cars.

She'll finish her lunch eventually....

12:40 - Rylee finally finishes her lunch. She's the slowest eater ever! Since I have the clippers out anyway, I give Rylee's fingernails a little trim. While I'm doing that, Ayden runs upstairs to find Rylee's pink matchbox car for her. They are playing so nicely together and actually sharing, so I give them a few minutes before herding them upstairs for nap/rest time.

12:58 - Upstairs, I swap the laundry out, throwing the clean load on my bed. They pick up all the cars dumped out in Ayden's room. Then we get their teeth brushed and I tuck them into bed for naps. Whether they sleep or not is debatable, but we do "quiet" time regardless. I go into my room and fold the laundry on my bed.

1:20 - Back downstairs, I finish my first 34 oz of water for the day and refill my water bottle. I then settle onto the couch to snack on Pirate Booty, catch up on Facebook, and start this blog post.

1:30 - I have to run upstairs to ask Ayden to stop kicking his wall. Sigh. I'm pretty sure Rylee has gone to sleep. I head back downstairs.

1:45 - I hear a door open up into their shared bathroom. I hope it's Ayden just going potty and he'll go back to bed. Pretty soon I hear them both playing. I hear them shut/slam their doors and run back to their their beds as I head up the stairs once again. Our stairs are creaky and they can hear me coming. Turns out that Rylee HAD been asleep, but Ayden found one of her stuffed animals in his room and just HAD to return it. They make me laugh and pull my hair out all at the same time! lol. I get them both tucked back into their beds.

2:30 - Starts pouring down rain, then hailing, and then comes the thunder and lightening. We are a part of a Nature Mamas/Kids group, and we are all scheduled to go on a nature walk this afternoon. I check in with the other moms to see what the plan is since it's storming outside. Nobody wants to cancel, so we decide to check back in at 3:00, hoping that it will pass. I'm also half expecting one of the kids to come out of their rooms to ask what the noise is outside, but neither one of them do.

2:55 - I hear a toilet flush upstairs. It's time to go get them up.

3:00 - The weather has calmed down considerably, so our nature walk is still on as scheduled. I help get Rylee changed into play clothes and pack some spare clothes and their rain suits. I give them both a kids Clif bar for a snack.

3:20 - Leave for our nature walk at Perkins Peninsula.

3:28 - We are the last ones to arrive in our group. I quickly get the kids into their rain suits and then we are off to play and explore.

Fall leaves

It's a reservoir, and the water level has drastically gone down for the winter during the last month, leaving the "beach" nice and muddy.

He fell in the mud so his hands were a little lot dirty.

My blue eyed babies!

5:00 - I've got us all loaded back in the car and we are on our way home. Once we arrive home, I get everything unloaded from the car, change out of my muddy jeans, and turn on another new Netflix show (Ghost Patrol) for them to watch while I worked on dinner. They snack on raisons and crackers.

6:10 - I finish my second water bottle for the day and am now at 68 oz.

6:15 - Take dinner out of the oven.

6:25 - Sit down to dinner.

6:30 - Tony is home and joins us for dinner.

6:40 - Ayden finishes his dinner

6:50 - Rylee finishes her dinner. I give them both a multi vitamin.

6:53 - We head upstairs for a bath. While they play in the tub a bit, I get Ayden's bed made with fresh sheets and mattress protectors. Tony usually does bath time, but he is battling a gout flare up and can't kneel at the tub to wash the kids.

7:05 - Get them washed up and out of the tub. Both of them put their pajamas on all by themselves. Rylee is Miss Independent and mastered doing this quite awhile ago. Ayden doesn't take as much interest in doing things himself yet; tonight is the first night he has been able to get his pj top on all by himself! Once they are dressed, we get their teeth brushed.

Brushing his teeth



7:24 - It's Ayden's turn to pick a book tonight for story time. He chooses See Inside Your Body, a great little book that they have learned so much from! They know the difference between bones and muscles, can point out where the heart, lungs, kidneys, and bladder, and they know the difference between the wind pipe and food pipe! Their favorite part of the book is the path that food takes from your mouth, to your stomach, and then coming out as waste. I mean, who doesn't love a good poop story!




7:45 - They go potty one last time before bed and we say our goodnight prayers. They give each other hugs and kisses. Tony says his goodnights to Rylee in her room, while I say my goodnights to Ayden. Then we switch. Ayden requires a big hug and then upside down tickles from me. Then he ushers me out of his room and waits for Daddy at his bedroom door. With Rylee, I lay down in her bed with her. There's a few tickles and we sing a few songs. Tonight she only wants me to sing her one song and then wants to sing made up songs all by herself. When I try to give her one last kiss, she decides she has to go potty one more time. Once we're done in the bathroom, I give her one more hug and kiss and get her tucked back into bed.

8:04 - I leave her room and lay on my bed, going through all my pictures from the day while I wait for them to go to sleep. Ayden is quiet and most likely is already asleep or close to it.

8:14 - I hear Rylee get out of bed. She's playing in her room and talking to herself.

8:27 - Rylee is quiet again. I think she is asleep.

8:37 - Tony comes upstairs and lays down on the bed bedside me, elevating his foot for the gout. He forgot the ice pack for it downstairs.

8:50 - I run downstairs and grab the ice pack for him. I take it upstairs to him and then return downstairs to put the leftover dinner away. Then I get to work on this blog post.

10:10 - I take Ayden potty. He barely wakes up. Once he's back in bed, I head downstairs to snack on some sweet potato chips and catch up on social media.

11:12 - I finish my third water bottle of the day to complete my 100 oz. Then I head to bed. Before going to sleep, I sync my Fitbit to my phone. It was a pretty active day!




Thursday, October 5, 2017

20th Anniversary


September 13th was our 20th wedding anniversary! And as of September 26th, we have been together for 25 years. A quarter of a century! We didn't do anything special on our actual anniversary, since it landed in the middle of the week. We actually had to wait until just this past weekend, because that was the weekend that his parents were available to watch the kids for us.

For the first time in since the kids have been born, we had our first weekend sans kids. In fact, the last time we spent a weekend away was exactly 4 years ago, when we celebrated our anniversary at the coast, while I was pregnant with the twins.

4 years ago

Tony's parents took the kids to their house in Washington, where they had a blast playing with their cousins. We had debated spending our anniversary weekend in Portland, going out to a fancy dinner and going to a comedy club, but in the end, we opted for a more relaxing weekend at the coast. We stayed at the Inn at Spanish Head, which is a hotel I've driven by many times and always wanted to stay at but never actually thought we would. We had a wonderful ocean view room, and we kept the sliding glass door cracked open all weekend so we could hear the sound of the ocean and feel the cool breeze. We took a few nice long walks on the beach and watched the sunset both nights. The first night there was hardly a cloud in the sky. The weather was perfect, with barely any wind at all. If you've been to the Oregon coast before, you know that is rare!



We weren't sure we would actually be able to see the sunset on the second night, because there were definite storm clouds on the horizon, but the sun came down at just the right spot to peek through the clouds. We both agreed that the clouds made the sunset even more spectacular.





Just a short walk down the beach was a little bay that had well over a hundred harbor seals on the other side. We enjoyed watching them lounge along the shore line and take turns dipping into the water to go fishing. The kids would have LOVED to see the "silly seals." We took a picture for them instead :)

The seals



We played a million games of Yatzee in our room. It was not a good weekend for me, as luck was NOT on my side. At one point, I had only won one game to his eleven. eye roll. I did turn it around and win a few games before heading home though. As Tony always says, "you're only as good as your last game." A quote he annoyingly always says when it's to HIS advantage. another eye roll. He always comes up with some reason why that saying doesn't apply when it's anyone else that wins the last game. haha

We had a visitor on our balcony.

We took a trip down memory lane and found a miniature golf place that we had been to when we were dating many years ago. Way back then, they had all the visitors sign their names on the wall, but they have since painted over those walls. There were a few names still visible, but not many. We played a few rounds of mini golf and a few games of Ms. Pacman. For anyone keeping track, I won the first round of golf and he won the second. He needed to redeem himself, because it had been awhile since he'd beaten me at mini golf, lol. I used to be completely unbeatable at Ms. Pacman. I mean, I was ridiculously good and he could never beat me (one of very few games I was actually better at than him), when we were younger. Well, he managed to beat me our first game of Ms. Pacman, but I came back and dominated after that. We aren't competitive at all. wink, wink.

It was a fantastic, relaxing weekend of reconnecting and focusing just on US. Of course we missed the kids and thought of them a million times, but it was soooooo nice being able to just do what we wanted for a few days. We could go to bed when we wanted, wake up when we wanted, and eat when we wanted, without being responsible for the demands and needs of two little people. We used to play games together ALL. THE. TIME. We were able to eat at a restaurant without having to make a million trips to the bathroom. It was so nice to do all of that again.

As we were driving home to pick up the kids from their grandparents, Tony made the comment that he didn't want to wait another four years before doing this again. We need to make time for ourselves at least once a year, twice if we can afford it. Ahhhhhhhh.... I can't wait until next time!






Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Right Now: September Edition

Reading: We have finally moved past reading the Big Book of Big Dinosaurs every single night. It's still sneaks it's way back into our bedtime routine a few times a week, but that is much better than pretty much every single night for the past 4 months straight! For the past two weeks, we've had a nice variety to our bedtime stories. As for me personally, I have been able to do a fairly decent job of keeping up on my blog reading for the most part. I'm looking forward to being able to read a real book here soon, once I work my way through a few projects.

Watching: This is Us! Yay for the season premiere being last night!

Listening: I haven't been listening to a whole lot recently, but I did listen to the Jack Johnson station on Amazon Prime Music last week while I was cleaning and the kids were at school. It was so refreshing to turn up the music and listen to whatever I wanted for a change! I should do that more often...

Drinking: Water, but nearly enough.

Eating: Ummmm, I don't really want to tell you that I just ate some M&M's and pretzels. But it was really good. Just not for my waistline. Shoulder shrug and eye roll.

Wearing: Grey shorts and a black Central softball t-shirt from my coaching days.

Loving: Watching my kids play soccer! Tony and I are most definitely not soccer fans, but it has been so much fun watching our kiddos playing tot soccer. They LOVE it!



Anticipating: This weekend Tony and I will be celebrating our 20th (TWENTIETH!) wedding anniversary with our first weekend away, sans kids, since the kids have been born. We've had a few short overnighters, but not a full weekend! We are so excited! We are staying at the Inn at Spanish Head on the Oregon coast, somewhere I have always wanted to stay but never thought I'd actually get the opportunity. We are looking forward to being out late enough to watch the sunset on the beach, sleeping in as long as we want, eating at a restaurant without a million trips to the bathroom, and just doing whatever we want!

Hoping: To get rest of the house painted soon. That is my next project. Although, I do think it's going to be a pain only having 2.5 hours to do it every day while the kids are at preschool. I feel like I'll have just enough time to get it all set up, and only be able to paint for 2 seconds before I have to put it all away and go pick up the kids again. Exaggerating of course, but only a little. I'm hoping it will be a smoother process than I am anticipating.

Following: The most recent controversy about the NFL players taking a knee during the National Anthem. I'm keeping my opinion neutral, because I think both sides have very valid points. Unfortunately, I think most people have trouble really listening and trying to understand anyone else's viewpoints but their own.

Wondering: If my period is going to start and put a damper on celebrating our anniversary this weekend. I mean, what's a free weekend to ourselves, to celebrate and focus on just US, without a little hanky panky? I'm already 4 days late, so if I follow the trend from last month when I was 10 days late, we should be just fine. We can only hope.

Trying: To work on my patience. It's been lacking for a very long time, and I think my kids deserve better. More sleep would help.

Worrying: I was going to say nothing, because I'm really not worried about anything at the moment, but that's just not true. I think that being a parent causes one big giant pot of worry. As a mom, how can we not worry endlessly that we are going to screw up our kids?

Planning: I need to start thinking about what we are going to do for the kids' birthday this year. I was hoping to do it at our local fire station, but I called and left a message inquiring if that's something they do and they haven't called me back. I left that message about 6 weeks ago.... I need to try again. I have until December, but it would be nice to know if that's at least a possibility.

Contemplating: When I'm going to start painting this house! I've enjoyed just being able to relax a little bit the last few days, now that the consignment sale is over. I think I'll take the next few mornings to get the kids and I packed for the weekend, and then start working on it next week.







Tuesday, September 26, 2017

Consignment Sale

I just finished participating in my 6th consignment sale! It's one of my favorite things to do because it's something for ME! It's kind of funny to think of it as something I get to do for myself when it's all about buying and selling kids stuff, but it's something that I enjoy. I love being able to sell so much of the clothes and toys that the kids have grown out of, and then being able to shop with no guilt because I always manage to earn more than I spend.

This year I spent $166, but made $330. I think I spent more this year than I ever have, which is kind of funny because the kids really didn't need much. I always look for great deals on barely worn shoes, Disney movies, and I was on a mission to find snow suits for them both and snow boots for Ayden. Other than that, it was all about just finding fun stuff that I couldn't turn down. Even though I found myself spending more this year, I still managed to come in $164 ahead! Woo hoo!

Here's another stat I think is pretty awesome - I managed to sell 90% of the stuff I took. It's probably weird, but I enjoy the game of trying to figure out what to price things at in order for it to sell. I think I did pretty good!

Not only do I enjoy the shopping and selling aspect of the sale, but I enjoy volunteering at it as well. This time around, I was able to work three shifts. Boy did I get my steps in on those days! I worked one shift during the pre-sale (early shopping for the consigners and volunteers) and got almost 20,000 steps in that day! On Saturday, I worked two back to back shifts and was on my feet for almost an entire 8 hours straight. I got 18,609 steps in that day. It's a lot of work, but I enjoy the adult interaction and having a job to do, even if only for a brief time, outside the home.

 Here are the goodies I came home with this year:


  • I found each of them a pair of black dress shoes
  • A pair of snow boots for Ayden
  • M-Select Merrell Shoes for Rylee. I spent $10 on these, but they are spendy shoes regularly and totally worth it for a pair of barely used waterproof shoes that will be great for going on hikes!
  • I am totally excited about finding them each a pair of cleats! I got a pair of baseball cleats for Ayden that we'll also use for soccer, and a pair of soccer cleats for Rylee! I got them a little big, but they should fit and maybe they will be able to wear them next year too!





  • Several movies: The Good Dinosaur, which we have already watched and the kids LOVE, Planes Fire & Rescue and Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs (which will both be put up to go in their Christmas stockings), and a set of Christmas TV favorites which includes 8 different TV movies!
  • The two Planes from the Disney Planes movie that still haven't been given yet (see previous post)
  • Two toy horses for Rylee, which I'm also still waiting to surprise her with
  • A scoop tractor for the kids to play outside with and that will be perfect for when we go to a sand park that's not too far from our house
  • A Green Toys airplane to give Ayden for Christmas



  • I did manage to find snow bibs for each of the kids



For clothes, the kids are well stocked in most everything they need right now, so I tend to look at the next sizes. I have storage totes in my closet for saving the clothes that they will grow into. I do look through their current sizes too, just in case I can find a great deal on something fun for them.

My finds this year for Rylee include:
  • 3 hooded sweatshirts
  • a pair of Capri jeans
  • 2 leggings
  • 1 skirt
  • 1 dress
  • 4 shirts
  • a black cardigan sweater
  • 4 pairs of pj's



My finds for Ayden:
  • 2 hooded windbreaker jackets 
  • 2 hooded sweatshirts
  • a flannel shirt
  • 2 "layered" look long sleeve shirts
  • 2 polo shirts
  • 4 long sleeve shirts, 2 with hoods

I can't even tell you how much he is going to LOVE his "new" Spider-Man, Woody and Buzz, and Batman shirts!


Now that I'm done prepping all my stuff for the sale, and this consignment sale is completely in the books, it's on to my next project, which is finish painting my house!

Friday, September 22, 2017

Meltdowns

Oy. Today has been quite the day so far. Ayden spent a good 30 minutes (at least) having a meltdown this morning over a stupid "Dusty toy."

A little background... One of his favorite movies is Disney's Planes. My nephews have two toy planes from that movie, Dusty Crophopper (what Ayden calls his Dusty Toy) and Skipper. Every time we go to their house, Ayden seeks out these two planes and they are "his" while we are there. When we stayed at Sis's house for the week when our sister from Montana was visiting, he slept with those silly planes every single night!




The other day when we went to the open house at their preschool, I saw a few of the toy planes from the movie....

Ayden started this morning out by just talking about ''his" Dusty toy and how he needed it. He needed one with a propeller; he told me there was a boy one and a girl one. He told me all about how he wanted one and he was going to get one. In fact, he talked as if it was a for sure thing that he was going to get one. This boggled my mind a little, as ironically, I had just last night bought him a Dusty toy (and another one I don't know the name of) at our semi-annual consignment sale! I couldn't help but wonder how he knew! I was going to surprise him with his new planes as soon as we made it through getting ready for school this morning, but he went from talking about these stupid planes to having a full on meltdown about them. He was not happy with the idea that he was going to have to share the planes at preschool with the other kids. He was convinced he wouldn't be able to have "his" Dusty toy. He cried and cried and cried and had a full on meltdown. I tried talking to him about how everyone had to take turns sharing the toys at school, and he would get his turn. Nothing I said to him worked to alleviate the tantrum. He went on and on and on. So obviously I wasn't able to give him his new planes, because there was NO WAY I was going to reward this meltdown by giving him exactly what it was he was throwing a fit about. I was really looking forward to surprising him with his very own Dusty toy, but now I can't. I also picked up a few little toy horses for Rylee, so they both would get a little surprise, but now the planes and horses are just hiding in a drawer until a more appropriate time that I can give them. Insert a little whining from me.

The culprits 

The innocent horses


I assumed the planes at the school belonged to the school, but that was not the case. When we arrived this morning, I talked to the head teacher about Ayden's rough morning because he was still pretty worked up. Turns out that the planes actually belonged to another kid who had brought them to school the other day and to the open house. She explained that the boy who brought them in was very good about sharing though. That would be all fine and good except for the part about Ayden NOT being a good sharer. The kid likes to claim things as his. Always has. He is getting better about it, but it's definitely a work in progress.

As I was about to leave after dropping off the kids, Ayden got into a tug of war with another kid over a book. Ayden didn't win the tug of war and proceeded to have another meltdown. To be fair, this other kid was hoarding about 20 books and most definitely did not want Ayden to have one. I took Ayden aside to calm him down, and then went back over to see if I could read a book with him to try settling him down again. As soon as this other kid saw Ayden coming back over, he laid on top of ALL the books! lol. Well, the teacher saw that happen and stepped in. She talked to Ayden about using his words, and if that didn't work then he needs to ask a teacher. I really liked how she handled the situation. Ayden settled down enough for me to leave and I wished the teacher luck.

Fortunately, Ayden ended up having a good day at school despite our rough morning. However, he came home still talking about the damn Dusty toy. Insert eye roll.

Ayden came home in a much better mood, but Rylee did not. Oh. My. Gahhhh. It was her turn to have major meltdowns. Her meltdown was over a rock and a nut she had collected and lost on the bike ride we took as soon as we got home from school. She cried for a solid half hour.

Then they both had meltdowns when I got mad about them playing with their dinosaurs instead of picking them up like I had asked a gazillion times. Granted, I should not have lost my temper, but after spending our entire day together with at least one of them crying over something, I was DONE.

Thank the Lord for quiet time. Now I just need to decide when to give them their new planes and horses. I don't feel like I should give them anytime soon, because I really don't want to be that parent that gives in when their child throws a tantrum over something they want. I'm so disappointed. I was really looking forward to seeing their reactions when Ayden gets his new Dusty toy and Rylee gets a few beloved horses.

Monday, September 18, 2017

Microblog Monday: "I Want My Daddy"




"I want my Daddy." I hear this phrase a minimum of 50 times a day, almost every single day, Monday through Friday. It's exhausting. It's a strain on my patience to constantly repeat that Daddy is at work but he'll be home tonight. It makes me feel like chop liver. It makes me feel unloved. 

know that it's not a measurement of their love fore me, or lack there of, but knowing that doesn't stop it from being difficult to hear this over and over and over and over..... every single day.




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Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Tuesday Bullets

You'd think with the kids being in preschool now, I would have time to catch up on things, but that never seems to happen. I didn't realize how fast 2.5 hours would fly by! Seems I barely get started working on something and it's already time to head back and pick the kids up from school. I always have blog posts swirling around in my head, but then never actually sit down and put them together. So, here's a quick summery of what's going on these days...


  • I'm working on the upcoming consignment sale. I've got almost all my items entered into the system and tags printed out. Now I need to work like mad to get everything tagged and on hangers. I have exactly one week to get it done, which sounds like plenty of time, but I am limited to when the kids are either at school or in bed. 

  • We spent Friday night with Tony's parents. They have a ton of family visiting for a family reunion, so met a lot of people I don't know. It was okay, but not my favorite way to pass the time. The kids loved spending time at their grandparents though. Rylee was super happy that she got to ride her horse, Lucy.

  • I had a crazy lunatic mom moment happen on Saturday, driving home. Tony went to the Oregon State football game (they really suck this year. boo!) with his brother and nieces, so it was just me and the kids driving home. MIL had gotten the kids each a balloon on a stick, which we put in the back of the car for the trip home. About an hour into the drive, Rylee said she really had to go poopy. I still keep a potty seat in the back of the car for just these situations. It works so much better than dragging both kids into a gross public gas station bathroom. I took the next exit off the freeway and pulled into a closed auto parts store parking lot, which sits right next to a gas station. I was trying to hurry, so I opened up the back of the car before getting Rylee out of her seat. Wouldn't you know it, but those stupid balloons flew right out of the car and made a mad dash across the parking lot! Like a crazy woman, I chased after them because I had two kids that would scream like banshees if they lost their balloons. I was able to grab one of the balloons, but the other one was moving way too fast over to the gas station parking lot. A semi truck was pulling out to exit and had to slow down as I ran in front of him after this stupid balloon! He wasn't going very fast to begin with and I had plenty of room, but I still felt like an idiot running in front of him. Finally, a guy coming out of the gas station grabbed the balloon for me. Then I made a mad dash back to the car, because it was sitting there unlocked, with the back end open, with the kids inside, along with my purse sitting in the front seat. I stuffed the balloons into the front seat, trying to wedge them onto the floor board, with Rylee telling me she REALLY had to go poopy. But one of those damn things managed to escape again right as I was shutting the door!! Arrrggggg! This time I let the balloon go, because there was no way I would be able to catch up to it a second time. After getting Rylee out and onto the potty seat, I stood there bent over, trying to catch my breath, all while Rylee was screaming and crying about her stupid lost balloon. She cried off and on the entire rest of the drive home and for the entire evening. I officially hate balloons now.

  • Preschool seems to be going pretty good. Ayden adamantly didn't want to go the second morning, but once we arrived, he was off and playing. Every day since then has been relatively easy to get them out of the house in the morning and off to school. They are both full of smiles when I pick them up every day. It's definitely an adjustment though. For all three days last week, once we got home, they both turned into super cranky, emotional little bears. The 2.5 hours of peace while they were gone almost wasn't worth the crankiness in the afternoon! This week seems to be going much better.
Preschool Week 2


  • We struggled off and on all summer with Rylee peeing her pants. I have no idea what the deal is, because she definitely knows better. Well, she is back at it again here recently. Sunday, she peed her pants twice and yesterday she peed on our couch (steam coming out of my ears). And she doesn't seem to care! She just continues on about her business until I discover she is wet. I'm sure it all has to do with starting preschool and the change in our routine, but it's extremely frustrating when she's been completely potty trained for a year and a half already! Sigh.

Whelp, it's time to wake the kiddos up from their naps. If I let them sleep much past 3:00, bedtime becomes a challenge. And we can't let that happen because Tony and I are catching up on the show This is Us before the new season starts. I've already seen the first season, but Tony decided he wanted to watch it too, so I'm watching it again with him.

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

First Day of Preschool

Last spring, Rylee told me pretty much every single day that she wanted to go to school. We had been unsure about having them start preschool this year or next, but after visiting the school during their open house, we decided to bite the bullet and signed them both up. The kids have waited patiently all summer for this day to come.

A few weeks ago, I took the kids shopping with me. I had to buy a wedding gift and while we were there, I browsed the shoe department. Ayden was in desperate need of tennis shoes. I found a sales rack that had TMNT shoes, Spiderman, Paw Patrol, etc. Ayden fell in love with a pair of light up Spiderman shoes. Of course, those were the one pair of shoes on the rack that ended up NOT being on sale, but I couldn't put them back. He was so excited about the shoes, I had to buy them anyway (while internally cringing over the price). We brought the shoes home and put them up, saving them for the first day of school,

On Sunday, we took the kids school shopping. This only consisted of letting the kids pick out backpacks and picking up their school supplies, but Ayden and Rylee were super excited and so was their mom and dad. Experiencing their joy and excitement is truly the best thing about being a parent. Once we were done with our shopping, we took them to see Despicable M3. They LOVED it! This was their 4th movie theater experience. Every other movie we have taken them to, they usually down their drinks in 10 seconds and then we spend the rest of the movie with a million trips to the bathroom. Well, they still downed their drinks pretty quickly, but Ayden made it through the ENTIRE movie without a single trip to the bathroom!! He was so totally engrossed in the "Minion" movie, there was no way he was leaving. Rylee had to have two potty breaks, but that is still a vast improvement over the previous trips to the movies!

Yesterday, their school opened for drop ins to meet the teachers and drop off school supplies. The kids checked out all the toys and played for a bit, and we found their names marking where their seats would be when class started. Once we were home and they'd had their naps, we picked out their clothes for school the next day, and I pulled Ayden's Spiderman shoes out of the closet. Oh. My. Gosh. The excitement! He tried them on and was totally stoked about his new light up shoes. He wore them for the entire rest of the day. Of course Rylee really wanted light up shoes then, too! Fortunately, she had a pair in her closet that she'd gotten for Christmas and we just needed to wait for her to grow into them. I pulled them out and tried them on her. Yay! They fit! So they both ran around the house in their new light up shoes. They could barely contain their excitement.

And finally we made it to today! Their first day of school! Ayden gobbled down his breakfast so that he could get dressed and put his new shoes on. Rylee was too excited to eat, so she took for-ev-er to finish her breakfast, but she finally did. She requested that I put "ponytail braids" in her hair. Of course I had to oblige.

Once they were dressed, they got their shoes on, put their backpacks on, and were ready to GO! They put up no fuss at all to the obligatory first day of school photos. Although, it was like pulling teeth to get them both to look at the camera at the same time. They think it's hilarious to look elsewhere. Ayden actually made the discovery that we had a porch light, because he insisted on looking up! lol. I did manage to get a few really cute pictures though.


My favorite picture of the day!

I don't know if they were more excited about their new shoes and backpacks, or about school!

First day of school family selfie.

Dropping them off at school felt very anticlimactic. We signed them in, found the cubbies for their backpacks, and then they were off playing. Tony and I ended up leaving without even saying goodbye, which I later felt really guilty about. They were happy and distracted and we just felt like it would be best not to potentially rock the boat by pointing out to them that we were leaving. I wish I knew how they reacted once they realized we were gone.

I am totally excited about having some time to myself in the mornings. I have a ton of stuff I need to do to get ready for the upcoming consignment sale in just two weeks. Then I plan to finish painting our house and unpacking. Finally. Then, who knows? Maybe I'll actually be able to read a book! Or clean the house uninterrupted! The possibilities are endless! Although, I did discover that those 2.5 hours go by really, really, really fast! haha

When I picked them up from school, Rylee was upset because she thought she was going to be leaving without her "pirate hat" that she'd made. She didn't realize that her teacher had gone to get it for her and started having little meltdown, thinking we were leaving without it. She calmed down once she finally had it in her hands.

After school picture. Ayden called his hat a "captain hat" and Rylee's was a "pirate hat."

I think they both had a great day at school, although it's hard to get a lot of feedback from 3 year olds! Rylee was very emotional and sensitive from the time I picked her up till shortly after their nap (when I distracted them with play-doh). Her favorite part of school today was snack time, and learning a new fishy song. She did tell me that one of the teachers wasn't very nice. She said that the teacher told her she had to get out of the kitchen. Seems like a good rule to me that the kids can't be in the kitchen while the snacks are being prepared, and knowing Rylee, she was trying to be right there so she could get her snack first! I think she was just a little over sensitive to maybe thinking she got in trouble.

Ayden's favorite part of school was playing with the two tractor toys. I didn't get any other feedback from him at all! But he seemed the most happy and content with how the day went, which I was a little surprised about. I think Rylee was just a little overwhelmed with all the excitement and the newness of going to school.

Hopefully we will all settle into the new routine before long. I am a little nervous for the day one of them tells me they don't want to go to school. I know that day will come! I just hope it's not tomorrow already. Ha!

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

50 Questions You've Never Been Asked




Risa, from risakerslakewrites.com, recently tagged me to participate in her own 50 Questions You've Never Been Asked post. I love these kind of get-to-know-you question and answer posts, so here you go!
01. What’s your favorite candle scent? I stopped burning candles once Ayden and Rylee were born. However, I used to be a candle lady at one time, and sold PartyLite candles (direct sales). My favorite scent was Creme Carmel. Mmmmmm.
02. What female celebrity do you wish was your sister? Kristen Bell. I love her. She seems like a very down to earth person. She's quirky while also being beautiful and funny.



03. What male celebrity do you wish was your brother? Well, sticking with the Kristen Bell theme, I think I'll pick Dax Shepard. He's her husband, in case you didn't know. Wait a minute. That would be weird, because then they'd be siblings too.... I pick him because I watched Parenthood, a show I've seen every episode of.



04. How old do you think you’ll be when you get married? I was one month shy of turning 23.
05. Do you know a hoarder? Tony would tell you that I'm one. Or at least used to be. I've actually gotten rid of a LOT of stuff over the last few years. Moving 4 times in 2 years kind of forces a person to downsize. Actually, I got rid of a ton of stuff in preparation for the babies being born. That was the start of my purging.
06. Can you do the splits? That would be a firm no.
07. How old were you when you first learned how to ride a bike? I have absolutely no idea, but I did learn, so..... maybe I should ask my mom.
08. How many oceans have you swam in? Oh goodness. This is going to take some googling...

I have swam in two oceans, the Pacific and Atlantic. But I've also swam in the Caribbean Sea and the Sea of Cortez.
09. How many countries have you been to? Two, United States and Mexico
10. Is anyone in your family in the army? My dad was in the Army. My grandpa served in the Navy. I have a cousin that has recently enlisted, but I don't know which branch.
11. What would you name your daughter if you had one? Rylee Viola



12. What would you name your son if you had one? Ayden James. I had this named picked out for years.



13. What’s the worst grade you’ve got on a test? Ohhhh, I failed a few here and there.
14. What was your favorite TV show when you were a kid? I loved watching Saturday morning cartoons at my grandparents house: Looney Tunes and Smurfs were favorites. I also loved Who's the Boss.
15. What did you dress up as for Halloween when you were 8? Specifically when I was 8? Hahahaha! Someone thinks I have a good memory. I have no idea what I was when I was 8 years old, but I do remember dressing up as a witch once or twice.
16. Have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games or Twilight series? I've read all the books in each of those series. I've seen all the movies too!
17. Would you rather have an American accent or a British accent? I already have an American accent, but I used to pretend I had a British accent!
18. Did your mother go to college? Not until I was in middle school. As a single parent, she went back to school and became a nurse.
19. Are your grandparents still married? They were married until my grandpa passed away several years ago.
20. Have you ever taken karate lessons? No, but I used to pretend to be the Karate Kid. You know, that famous one legged crane kick...



21. Do you know who Kermit the frog is? Of course. Is there anyone who doesn't know Kermit the Frog?

22. What was the first amusement park you went to? Enchanted Forest, one of my favorite places as a child AND as an adult!
23. What language beside your native language would you like to be fluent in? Spanish. I took three years of French in high school, but the only thing I can remember is how to count to three and say yes. I actually know more Spanish words than French!
24. Do you spell the color grey or gray? I've always spelled it grey, and I've been so confused why there are two different options!
25. Is your father bald? I don't think so. 
26. Do you know any triplets? I used to work with a triplet, but never met her siblings. I know several triplets online in the infertility community, but haven't met any of them in person.
27. Do you prefer Titanic or The Notebook? I love both of the movies, but REALLY loved the book, The Notebook.
28. Have you ever had Indian food? I'm not sure.
29. What’s the name of your favorite restaurant? Anything Mexican, probably Ixtapa. 
30. Have you ever been to Nandos? I don't even know what that is!
31. Do you belong to any warehouse stores (Costco, Bookers, etc.)? I spend way too much money at Costco.
32. What would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender? I'm not sure what my name would have been if I was a boy, but my mom did almost name me Poppy LaRue. Thank God she didn't!
33. If you have a nickname, what is it? Mommy. When I was in high school and first started coaching (before getting married), they all called my Kass (pronounced Kazz). My maiden name was Kassner.
34. Who’s your favorite person in the world? Tough question. Probably Tony's grandpa. Ayden and Rylee are my favorite little people. Obviously.
35. Would you rather live in the countryside or the city? In the country for sure, but close enough to be able to drive into town.
36. Can you whistle? Yes.
37. Do you sleep with a nightlight? Only in the bathroom, for middle of the night potty trips.
38. Do you eat breakfast every morning? Yes.
39. Do you take any pills or medication daily? No.
40. What medical conditions do you have? Besides infertility? I'm currently very over weight. Sigh.
41. How many times have you been to the hospital? I've only ever stayed overnight in the hospital during the kids' birth, which was 6 days hospital bedrest after my water broke, and then 19 days while they were in the NICU. 
42. Have you ever seen Finding Nemo? Of course.
43. Where do you buy your jeans? The last pair I bought was from Costco a few years ago.
44. What’s the last compliment you got? The kids told me that dinner was delicious tonight. I made spaghetti. lol
45. Do you usually remember your dreams in the morning? Sometimes, but usually no.
46. What flavor of tea do you enjoy? Yuck. I don't like tea. Or coffee. What is wrong with me?
47. How many pairs of shoes do you currently own? Too many to count. Probably in the neighborhood of 15-20, mostly tennis shoes and flip flops.
48. What religion will you raise your children to practice? Christian - Non denominational.
49. How old were you when you found out that Santa wasn’t real? I don't remember the moment I found out.
50. Why do you have a blog? When we were venturing into fertility treatments, I read a LOT of blogs. I was obsessed with learning as much as I could from others that were going through the same thing. One day I started writing about my own journey. 


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Who I'm tagging to answer these questions next:

Amie at Is It Time Yet?

Jane at Mine to Command

Non Sequitur Chica at Non Sequitur Chica

Stacie at Life As I Know It

Kimberly at No Good Eggs

Amanda at Burnt Toast Life

And of course anyone else that would like to participate! I would love to read your 50 questions/answers. Click here for an easy way to copy and paste the questions. Hope you don't mind that I'm stealing your template Risa :)

Please comment and post the link to your post if you do choose to participate, so I can be sure to read your own answers and learn more about YOU! Even if you don't have a blog yet, what a great way to start one!