Coming Out of the Closet

The only person that has known about my blog from the beginning is my sister.  I told her about it and had her read my very first post only a day or two after I wrote it.  I'm not going to lie, I was initially a little embarrassed to have her read it, but I really, really wanted her feedback.  Her response was "oh thanks a lot for making me cry!"  That made me feel better, to know that I could evoke that kind of emotion with my writing.  She has continued to read my blog, but she usually doesn't comment unless I ask her specifically about a post.  I also know that while I was pregnant, she wouldn't look for my blog posts right away because she wanted to hear from me personally about my ultrasounds rather than finding out the good or bad news from a blog post. 

My husband knows about my blog too, but he doesn't read it unless I specifically point out a post to him that I want him to read.  I'm not sure why he doesn't read it.  If he was writing a blog, I know for a FACT that I would be reading it all the time!  I'm not ashamed to admit that I am nosy.  haha!  Whenever I am sitting down at the computer, Hubby will ask me "how is my little blogger chick?"  It's either "Blogger Chick" or "Blogger Wife."  He's always making up little names.  If I'm watching a TV show, he will walk through the living room and say "how is my little reality TV wife doing?"  He's pretty funny, which I appreciate most of the time, but admittedly not ALL the time.  lol

My mom has read a few of my posts that I have specifically shared with her.  She doesn't have a computer or a smart phone, so she doesn't really have access to anything that would allow her to read my blog.  I have shared a few posts with her though and let her read it on my phone.  I'm not really sure she was aware of what she was reading, and she didn't ask, just appreciated what I shared with her.

I have kept my blog private from my family and in real life friends because it's been a safe place for me to write about my infertility struggles without having to filter it and worry about who might be reading it.  It's not a private blog by any means, but it would be a long shot for anyone to just happen upon it.  It's kind of funny really, because I'm not actually a very private person and have no problem sharing about my life, but very few know the intimate details of everything we've been through.

Well, I have now come out of the closet with one of my Aunts.  I have a pretty close relationship with this Aunt, who also happens to be my Godmother.  She has always lived about 4 hours away from us, but my sister and I used to spend every summer with her when we were kids.  Not for like a week, but more like at least a month out of every summer.  I'd been thinking about telling her about my blog for awhile.  I hesitated because I have read from many other bloggers that regretted telling their in real life people.

I finally bit the bullet and emailed her the link to my very first blog post so she could start at the beginning, and I am so glad I did!  She has left a comment on every single blog post she has read so far and it has been so much fun!  Her comments make me smile and I have enjoyed going back and reading my posts again, so I could remember what her comments were referencing.  She knew about our journey before, but now she is getting to know the intimate details.

This whole blogging business has been a great outlet for me, a great source of information and knowledge, in addition to the tremendous amount of support I have found from all my bloggie friends.  Now I get to share it with my favorite Aunt D as well!  Maybe someday I will share it with more IRL people, but for now, we'll just keep it to these few.