Friday, March 8, 2013

My Sister's Ultrasound

Today was my sister's next ultrasound appointment and I was able to go with her.  We found out that she is 12 weeks today (they weren't sure) and has a due date of September 20th.  The baby has two arms and two legs.  Funny story: the ultrasound tech wrote "Extr Lower" on the screen.  Then she said "I see two legs."  Sis let out a big sigh of relief.  She was worried because she thought the screen said EXTRA lower and was afraid of what that could mean!  Did her baby have 3 legs??!?!  haha!

Sis and I couldn't see the heartbeat.  We didn't voice our concerns out loud to each other, but finally Sis asked about it.  The ultrasound tech asked "don't you see that baby moving around in there?"  We didn't know if it was the baby moving, or her moving the wand.  It's kinda hard to tell when you don't see those things everyday!  The tech pointed out the heartbeat and our worries were put the rest.  She held the wand steady so we could see all the movement.  He/she was really doing some great baby dancing in there! 

I had a brief pang of regret and sadness that my own baby hadn't made it long enough for me to see him moving around during one of my ultrasound appointments.  I am so grateful that I got to hear the heartbeat, but it would be nice to have been able to see him wiggle around as well.  Of course, it would have been even sweeter if I was still pregnant.  I would have been 16 weeks today.  How awesome would that have been to have our babies only a month apart?  I envision what Christmas would have been like.  I dream about how sweet it would have been to watch them grow up so close in age.

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My saline infusion sonogram is scheduled for Wednesday.  Dr. W wanted me to have it done just to make sure no polyps have developed or any other issue with my uterus.  I didn't have to do it this cycle since I am not doing my FET until May, but she recommended it just in case there is something wrong.  That way we could take care of any problems that much sooner rather than later.
 
I am just excited to feel like I am actually doing something.  Assuming there is no problems, I will have this test done, then will be starting bcp's on my next cycle.  It boggles my mind how far away May seems, but how quickly the FET process will start.
 
 
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We have our first softball game this coming Tuesday.  I basically have a whole new team on the field this year since we graduated 8 seniors last year - 7 of which were starters!  It will be very interesting to see how it goes.  I don't even know if anyone is at all interested in reading about my softball life, but besides infertility, softball really IS my life.  It is what I have spent the majority of my time doing and thinking about for the past 20 years.  Hopefully I won't bore anyone to tears whenever I write about it.
 
Hope everyone has a glorious weekend!  We are expecting blue sky and sun tomorrow, with a big fat zero percent chance of rain!  Hallelujah!!!

21 comments:

  1. Yes, please write about softball! I hate infertility blogs that ONLY focus on infertility and you get no sense of who the author is. We all need a break from it once in a while.

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    1. Haha! Thanks! I am so happy to know you will still read my blog when I write about the rest of my life :)

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  2. Your posts always make me smile, tear up and laugh at the same time. I am happy you got to see the baby, and I am so sorry that it wasn't you. Your not done yet!
    I will never tire of hearing about softball, I am a sports fanatic!!!

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    1. Aww, that is such a sweet thing to say.

      I'm so glad to know that there are at least a few that will take an interest in my softball life. It's nice to know another sports fanatic!

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  3. I really enjoyed reading this post today. I can't emphasize enough how refreshing it is to see someone with your outlook. The way you have unconditional support for your sister is beautiful to me. Not everyone would be so supportive, even toward family. I just hope in my heart that within a few months you are able to share pregnancy with your sister!

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    1. Thank you so much T. My sister and I haven't always been so close, but I am so glad that we are now. I am pretty blessed by her, for sure. And yes! If I do get pregnant in May, we will still be pregnant together for a short time and our babies still be really close in age.

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  4. Sending hugs your way, just because!

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  5. I'm so glad things are going well with your sister. I have no idea if she was worried because of your situation, but it must have been hard either way. And for you to be there...well, that's both tough but rewarding. Glad you are getting to experience it, and hopefully she will be returning the favour soon.

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    1. I would imagine that there is always a sense of worry when pregnant, even for fertiles, although I am sure her worries were heightened with a new awareness because of my miscarriage.

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  6. My co-worker and I were both pregnant for a week until I miscarried. Our due dates would have been one week off. I had to do her ultrasound for her initial visit as her mom held her hand and wept. It's so tough when you have that visual reminded of what would have been happening for you. I can't imagine how much harder this must be to be by your sister's side. On the other hand, while it would have been fun for you two to be preggers together, you've waited long enough that you deserve your own moment in the sun!

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    1. Oh that would be so tough. I'm not sure how you do your job, witnessing everyone elses baby success on a daily basis. I'm sure you've also witnessed your fair share of heartache too though. I admire what you do.

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  7. That's so great that you get to be such a big part of your sister's pregnancy, and I can empathize with the pang of sadness you felt during the ultrasound. Every week, something happens where I am reminded of what could have been. I guess it's not going to go away for a while.

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  8. I love that my sister and her husband have included me in their pregnancies. I feel pretty fortunate and blessed to be that close with my sister, and to have the strong relationships I do with my niece and nephews. It's bittersweet at times though. Like you, sometimes it just reminds me of what I don't have, or what could have been.

    Thank you for stopping by my blog and leaving me a comment!

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  9. I think it's great that your sister is including you in her pregnancy. I can understand the sadness and the reminders of what should have been. It's such a weird mix of being sad for you and happy for her.

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  10. Glad your future niece/nephew doesn't have any extra limbs. I'm always happy to hear about softball btw.

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  11. I can totally see why your heart broke a little (or maybe a lot) at the sight of your niece/nephew on the ultrasound screen. And I'm sure that you will often think of your baby when you see/hold/play with your niece/nephew months and years from now. I had a friend who was due the same day I was due with Ethan, so when we lost him, it was really hard for me to see her. So hard in fact, that our friendship all but ended. There was other stuff going on, like a major lack of support from her though, so it wasn't just the pregnancy thing. Anyways, thinking of you and praying for you, Amber.

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  12. Congratulations to your sister! They say that, being a mom is the best job in the world. It would've been really nice if both of you are pregnant with only a few weeks apart. I'm pretty sure that both of your kids would be very close to each other, like me and my cousin. We're just a month apart and are very close to each other. Maybe, you and your sister's kid will be as close as we are. Also, I'm sorry for your loss. Someday, you'll also be given a precious gift as this one. Though, it's really nice of your sister and brother-in-law to include you in their pregnancy.

    Willow Laflamme

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    1. Yeah, I have no doubt they would have been very close. I can only hope that we will still have a shot at having cousins :) Thank you for visiting my blog and commenting!!

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  13. Such a bittersweet time for you and Sis, I am sure. But you both are strong, happy women and I'm sure you will both come through this for the better. Love you, Auntie
    PS: Again, you put so much into your writing that causes tears and laughter, very talented!

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  14. I can feel you, Amber. I can remember my excitement as I imagine looking at my baby during my first ultrasound. However, an accident removed that precious life from my tummy. I also wish I was still pregnant. :(

    Well, we have to move on. Just keep in touch with your doctor to make sure you don't have any complications and infections with the previous miscarriage. I'm sure you'll have your own baby in the future. Congratulations on your sister's new baby! :)

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