Good News, and Maybe Bad News

First, a review.   Friday I had some spotting, so I called the clinic to ask what I should do.  It wasn't fresh blood, but I was concerned none the less.  They had me go in on Saturday morning to check things out with an early ultrasound.  Because I was only 6 weeks on Saturday, they weren't sure we would actually see a heartbeat since it's usually not detectable until about 6 1/2 weeks.

The Good News:

We do have a baby and we were actually able to see AND hear the heartbeat!  It made me teary in my relief, hearing that heartbeat.  It was 108, which Dr. A said was normal at this stage.  They want it to be over 100.

The Maybe Bad News:

We also have a baby that we were NOT able to detect a heartbeat on.  That's right.  TWINS!  I have two babies in there.  However, we are not sure if Baby A will make it.  It might just have been too early to see the heartbeat, but since we could pick it up on Baby B, it's also highly likely that Baby A miscarried and won't make it to that stage at all.  Dr. A did assure me that this should not harm the baby with the heartbeat.  I have read that with multiples, sometimes one of the fetuses can dissolve in early pregnancy.

So, it was a mixed bag of emotions.  Hubby and I have always wanted twins, but at this stage in the game, I must admit that the thought of a twin pregnancy is both exciting and terrifying all at the same time.  The idea of having two babies doesn't scare me.  In fact, I relish the idea.  We would really like to have more than one child, and getting it done all at once seems like a grand idea, especially since this is our last go at it.

However, the increased pregnancy risk with twins is very scary.  As much as we would love to have two, we really, really, really, really want to have at least ONE child.  We would be extremely happy to live the rest of our lives with an only child, if that is our only option.  We would like two, but the high risk factor is a scary prospect.  What if we don't make it through the pregnancy with either one of them as a take home baby?

But then again, since I am already pregnant with twins, I don't want one of them to already be gone.  Sigh....I really don't know what to think.

Dr. A did say it was okay for me to continue normally.  I asked about going to our softball tournament over the weekend. The first thing she asked was "are you playing?"  No!  I told her that I would be watching.  I did tell her I would be walking around quite a bit though, as it's a little walk to get to the ball fields.  She said that was more than okay.

The one thing I do know is that I am definitely pregnant.  I have not been feeling too great.  It is the worst when I get hungry.  That's when I feel the most nauseous.  I haven't puked yet, but I have been feeling rather sick.  I don't have any aversions at this point, other than food itself.  Haha!  No really.  I can eat whatever, but nothing is really appealing to me or tasting that great.  I can't seem to finish a meal, which has never been a problem for me.  Except for chips and salsa.  I was able to eat too many chips the other day!

If I am hungry, Lord help me if I drink any water.  That makes me feel the worst.  The only thing I drink is water, so this is becoming a challenge.  I'm just learning not to drink if I have an empty stomach.

I also have to force myself to gag down my prenatal vitamin.  That happened last time I was pregnant too.

The one thing I don't have is sore boobs.  Everyone talks about how much their boobs hurt in early pregnancy but I have yet to experience this.  They also don't seem to be getting any bigger yet, which I am thankful for, but I am sure that will probably change.

I am still spotting a little off and on.  Still brownish color.  Dr. A said this could be due to possibly miscarrying Baby A even though it's not fresh blood, but it's hard to tell at this point.

Our next ultrasound is Wednesday.  Only two more days!  I'm really excited because Hubby will be with me for this one.  My fingers are crossed and we are saying lots of prayers for two heartbeats.  Most importantly, we want to see at least the one, to know we have at least one baby continuing to grow strong.