So I finally found an itsy bitsy tiny amount of motivation! I told the Hubby the other night that I needed two nights during the week to be able to go for a walk/run. He 100% supports the idea and told me he would take care of bedtime. What he doesn't understand is that I don't want to give up putting the kids to bed in order for me to exercise. I either need to go as soon as he gets home so that I can be back for bedtime, or I go after they are in bed. It's not really an option for me to miss out on saying goodnight twice a week, at least in my mind!
He also said that we do have these things called jogging strollers.... Ummm, yes we do. And I DO take the kids for walks several times a week. However, if I just go for a long walk, they tend to fall asleep and then that messes with nap time! Besides, it would just be nice for me to get out by myself every once in awhile.
Well anyway, he came up with the plan for me to go on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Yesterday was my first walk by myself. I left after I cleaned up Ayden and Rylee from dinner. Can I tell you what a breath of fresh air it was to go for a nice brisk walk BY MYSELF??? I literally took several deep breaths and just relished having a half hour of ME time! It was so relaxing to not have to worry about Ayden and Rylee. To not have to try to keep up a conversation with two toddlers that can't yet talk. To not have to stop when one of them gets upset about something.
Please don't get me wrong. I love that I can take them for walks and they actually don't mind being in the stroller. I love talking with them and hearing them talk to each other. I love that I have the opportunity to stay home with them, but as a stay at home mom living in a town that I have no family and only one friend in, and as someone that really enjoys and needs my own personal time, it was the best, most relaxing 30 minutes I've had in a long time!
Tony got the kids in their pj's and brushed their teeth while I was gone. Then when I got back we read books and went through our bedtime routine together. It was perfect.
We'll see how long this lasts. Hopefully we can get into a good routine and I can continue.