I think it would be different if I knew my belly was growing, indicating the babies are growing. I think it would be different if I felt symptoms. As much as I don't relish the thought of puking, at least that would give me the reassurance that something was going on inside of me. Last week, I did feel a lot of nausea, especially in the mornings. However, that changed over the weekend. Today, nada. Nothing at all to say "hey! You're pregnant!" I'm not dying of hunger. I'm not nauseous. My boobs don't hurt.
I started spotting again yesterday and still am this morning. I know that's normal, and it doesn't really freak me out too much since it's not fresh blood, but I still don't want to see it. Hubby and I would like to eventually have sex again. It has been MONTHS! First, we didn't before the FET because I had blue stuff coming out of my hoo-ha due to the Estrace. Then you can't during your two week wait. Then we were just too nervous so waited until the first ultrasound. But before the first u/s, I started spotting. And it is highly recommended that you not have sex while spotting. The spotting has been hit and miss over the last few weeks, but more so again starting yesterday. Ugh!
Can these next 30 weeks just zip right by already? Actually, I'd like to experience this whole pregnancy thing, but it would be a lot easier if there was some way to just KNOW that everything is going okay.
Not irrational at all! I'm fully expecting my symptoms to vanish- just so I'm mentally prepared! It's so hard to wait! So, so hard! I'm thinking about you and praying so much for those babies! XOXO
ReplyDeleteThanks Laura! I know you are right behind me, so know exactly what I'm talking about! Praying for the both of us :)
DeleteIt's so much better once you get to the point you can feel movement. At the beginning it's so much time between appointments and you have no way not to worry that something has gone wrong without you knowing it. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteyes, I can't wait to get to that point!
DeleteIt might not help now, but maybe invest in a Doppler so that you can listen to the heartbeats for some reassurance. I've never had one but I know plenty of women who do and it helped give them a piece of mind in between appointments.
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking about it! I guess I'm just turning into a big worry wart.
DeleteThe doppler was a huge help for me. I couldn't always decipher 2 heartbeats but knowing at least one was beating away was always a huge relief. I bought the sonoline b on eBay for like 50 bucks. I don't use it as much now but did a ton at first. I can't recommend it highly enough. I consistently picked up a heartbeat from 9 weeks on. The waiting between appointments is so hard!
ReplyDeleteThank you Liz. I've been thinking about it, but was also concerned I wouldn't know how to use it. Once you can start feeling them moving around, I'm pretty sure you can't help but know they are still alive and kicking!
DeleteWhen you're ready, I've got a Doppler you can use. Saved my sanity until I was far enough along to feel them. :)
ReplyDeleteMany hugs. The thought of losing something so precious is a very scary thing. (((Hugs)))
oh my goodness Stacie, you are going to make me cry with your generosity. I would absolutely love to borrow your Doppler, although I must admit the thought of not knowing how to use it properly and not finding their heartbeats is a little terrifying too! lol I am ready! I am ready! I've been thinking about how to go about finding one :) My email address is pantheramber@gmail.com
DeleteThank you so much for being a good friend and support.
Reading your post brought me back to the beginning of my pregnancy. Hurry up and wait, that's how I felt. I was frustrated all the time. Obsessing over symptoms and googling non stop. It's an awful feeling that not to many understand. I had bleeding at 5-6 weeks to. I'm 34 weeks prego now! So stay strong girl!!!! Try to keep your days filled with activities.
ReplyDeletePraying!!
ReplyDeleteI can't speak from experience but I have heard that symptoms disappearing is normal. Still, I can understand the uncertainty. I have not stopped praying for you, friend, and I hope you guys can get yourselves nice and distracted until the next u/s.
ReplyDeleteYou sound 100% rational to me!! You are often on my mind. Keep growing, babies!
ReplyDeleteI was literally JUST saying this to a friend. I would like a daily medical confirmation that I am in fact pregnant. I don't really see why it's that hard!!!
ReplyDeleteIt's so hard isn't it? I've learned that symptoms come and go and don't necessarily mean anything bad. Please remember that today you are pregnant and you love your baby. *sigh* I wish we could know every minute that everything is okay but unfortunately we just have to have hope. xoxo FWIW, during both my twin pregnancies I had virtually zero symptoms.
ReplyDeleteI know it's hard Amber, but just have faith!! You have to many people praying for this to happen and YOU ARE PREGNANT!!!!! I hope that you can find a happy place and peace of mind so that you and T can enjoy the pregnancy and don't have to wait for them to be born (or turn 18)!!! Sending loads of prayers and love!! Auntie PS: Hoping to see you next week down this way?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteYour fears are very valid. I remember the first trimester being the hardest to get through, once it was over I could breathe a little easier. Just hang in there, you're doing great!
ReplyDeleteUgh! I think it's normal...not that it makes it any better! Hang in there and take care of yourself. That's the best thing you can do! Thinking so many good thoughts for you!
ReplyDeleteI know for sure if I ever got pregnant I would be symptom spotting 24-7, so it's got to be a bit disconcerting when your symptoms change/lessen/disappear. But so far so good with the twins, and I'm sure the next time you go in there'll be two little fetuses (fetii??) kicking away at each other in there. Can't wait for the update.
ReplyDeleteI agree completely. I keep saying I want a glass panel inserted to I can just peek on the babies whenever I want. I have had lots of days with no symptoms, and yet, still there's a cute little baby when i had my u/s. Hang in there. This is the beginning of a lifetime of loving your babies so much you will always worry about them.
ReplyDeleteyou beter not have sex at all..you will lose them. Yourrecords ditate you have an incompedent uterus/cervix???
ReplyDeleteUmmm, no. My records do NOT indicate I have an incompetent uterus/cervix. My uterus is perfectly healthy. Thank you for your positive advice. Please note sarcasm.
DeleteI'm sure I would be the same way. But hang in there my friend. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteI'm sure I would feel the same way if I were pregnant, especially in the early stages.
ReplyDeleteJust a word of caution over the doppler, my cousin used one and there were a few times she couldn't find the heartbeat even though the baby was fine. She had A LOT of stress over those days....
I am sending you TONS of sticky/positive vibes... I just know that everything is going to be great for you :)
There is NO data indicating having sex increases your risk of miscarriage, even with twins. We often caution against it in the first trimester, as it can cause light bleeding, which can be nerve-wracking. For patients who are having issues with bleeding, it can make it hard to determine the source. Loved your response to Anonymous
ReplyDeleteUGH! More than 30 day with out sex... you poor things! I am praying for you everyday, friend! I just know that when I see you in August you are gonna have the cutest baby bump ever and you are going to have to let me touch it!!
ReplyDeleteThose fears all sound rational to me. As much as I hated (hated!) the nausea, it was also reassuring. If I ever had a day where I felt a little better I would worry. Even now that I can feel them move, I worry when too long goes by and I haven't felt them. I am still relieved when I go to the OB and either see them or hear their heartbeats. I think we will always worry until we are actually holding those babies. And then a whole new round of worrying starts!
ReplyDeleteYes, yes, yes to all of this. I so hear you and I clearly remember all of these feelings at the beginning of my pregnancy as well. I hope that an unexplainable peace just washes over you. But even if it doesn't...if the anxiety stays put...you'll make it.
ReplyDeleteso excited, tomorrow is the 10th!!! Can't wait to hear your update :)
ReplyDeleteBlog stalking right now...hope all is well!
ReplyDeleteJust checking for an update from your appt!
ReplyDeleteJust checking to see how things are going, I pray all is well :)
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